what normal eyesight sometimes can't see...

Michiyo Chiaki Saruwatari

fine... i don't want to reaveal the meaning.. soud stupid!! HUH!.. That's what i got when i put my name in the japanese name generator i found in a friend's blogger acount.

why can't it be ... Michiyo Yamada, or Michiyo Kurokawa, or maybe, Miharu Hasegawa, Asuka Kurokawa, Makoto Kurokawa, Kumiko Shimizu, Miharu Inoue, Ayaka Matsuo, Chiaki Kuroda, Kumiko Iino... hahah!! I just used all my aliases in the name generator..... And there are similarities..

I was in the mental facility until @ 4:57 PM
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Million Thanks to You!

you know who you are, million thanks for the anti-right click code...

I was in the mental facility until @ 3:02 PM
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Think.. How can TEA reflect your personality?!

Lemon Tea...
Strong willed and a bit feisty in temper you stand
out from other people! Creative but dangerous
you have few friends and those that have been
accepted into your small group are special and
unique just like yourself. Once your mind is
made up that's it and no one can change it. You
can think clearly and figure out just what to
do in a tense situation which is a rare gift.
You arent twisted by societies rules and
regulations and are rebel by nature!


What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
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I was in the mental facility until @ 3:58 PM
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Three Weeks in Pain

ever since my BIG boo-boo on my first semester of my first year in college -that was College Algebra and Trigonometry - i didn't seem to have a normal enrolment. it was like a curse. in every semester that followed, there was either a course/subject to re-enroll or a course or subject that i have to enroll through late registration(~this is a big bummer, imagine people in lines...VERY LONG LINES!). i tell you, it was like- uh, i don't even know where to compare it with!!

this semester i decided not to go after a P.E. class which i needed to enroll via Late Reg. for once, i wanted to experience-again- normal enrollment. just when i thought i was going to feel it, it came to me that the heaven's were not allowing me to do so.

The thing is~ my professor has given me a rating of INC in a major subject, therefore the enrollment of the subjects in which the INC subject was a prerequisite was pending. the bigger problem is, the professor is no where to be found and IS very hard to contact. there were times when he said that he will be at the campus at a certain date and when that date comes, a Student Assistant would tell us that he will not be coming(~talk about major bummer!).

and after two weeks, from MY REAL enrollment date, he went to the campus and instantly whips out examinations ~COMPLETION?REMOVAL examinations for us(~even if we haven't reviewed).

After three hours of the nerve wracking, rain squeezing, tear-jerking(almost!) exam. i gave up(well, we, there were four of us). we finished halfway the exam and is pretty unsure of our answers.

to end the story, after two days of running back and forth the department for the results... we all passed the exams!!! ~note we didn't finish the exam and the answers were a UNSURE!!!

anyway, interlaced with the days of waiting for the professor was the change of matriculation problem with teh subject Physics... ah.. i don't want to discuss that anymore. I am just happy that i am now an OFFICIAL student of the university even if it took me three weeks to enroll... and i didn't have something for Late registration....

Thank God for givingme the patience to SURVIVE all of these!

I was in the mental facility until @ 3:21 PM
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Where Does Your Beauty Lie? .... in this case MY!

G:

Your Beauty lies
in Individuality. Different, amazing, and all your
own. You like be set apart
from all others and most love that you do. You are
solitary at times, but for
the most part, there is no greater compliment to
you than someone telling you
that you are different. You're most likely a bit of
a fighter and you hate it
when anyone attempts to change who you are. You
wear what you want, look how you
want and don't let anyone tell you what do to. You
can be a little immature at
times and have trouble dealing with authority and
asking others for help. You
like to do things yourself and are independent
almost to a fault. But, people
still find your individuality amazing and the fact
that no matter what happens
or what anyone else anyone thinks about it, you
will not change who you are.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Fire Animal: White Tiger Color:
Bold Colors, Odd
Colors Song: Just They Way I Am by Angel
Expression: Smirk

Gemstone:
Bloodstone Mythological Creature: Phoenix,
Dragon Sign:
Leo Planet: Pluto
Hair Color: Unnatural Colors Eye
Color:
Amber

Quote:
"You laugh because I'm different. I laugh
because you're all the same."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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I was in the mental facility until @ 6:10 PM
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A Pathetic Excuse for Poetry

banish him from my thoughts

i feel the dakness closing in
i gasped in search for a bit of light
your face to be revealed
it seemed eternity long
eternity searching from a shadow

i want you to be captured
to be chained
and away
throw you into a dungeon
farther part from my memories
that have grown bleak with longing

the necessity of seeing you
even only in my dreams
had made me grow weak
submissive
frail
meek
sick

better take you away
no matter how much it hurts
drive you away
from my mind
my thoughts
my heart
my soul

sacrifice this heart
for eternal bliss
but can it be
when you are the source of all this?

I was in the mental facility until @ 5:21 PM
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swell head, s#!+he@|)!, eat my dust!

how come you are so dense?!
perhaps you haven't read this..
o, ~hE11, only a few people know this...
perhaps you don't think that i am capable of writing...
you don't think that it is possible that i cound have a journal..
Foolish one! You probably think too less of me, that you would just laugh at my back whenever i say something. ~+hE hE11, good thing i have ideas... unlike people who would just lamely sit around... drooling, thinking~hE11, i am too good to be here....

what? too jealous that in some way i could be better? in some one i could link a gap that you couldn't reach? do not put your anger on me or on any of us for your insecurities. we deserve much more than that. we deserve respect.

if you do not want to be respected... then, let's get this on... EAT MY DUST!

I was in the mental facility until @ 5:03 PM
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Why Hide This?!

i wrote a poem...

his FACE is all that i can see

somehow
i can't see him as the most attractive face
he doesn't even have the most entrancig eyes
his features seem too ordinary

but everytime i turn around
i yearn to meet his eyes
and do not fail

my eyes sparkles
my mouth gasps
my heart aches
in it scars

the strenght of my longing
is just playing
images in my mind

for he is all around me
just ghost haunting me
with a smile that kept flashing
only on my memory

I was in the mental facility until @ 4:59 PM
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Me as a Sprite!

Cruel, beautiful, ominous and evil
You are a sprite of Darkness: Most shiver at the
sound of your name, you are ominous and
something to be feared. Humans are playthings
to you, toys for your own horrid uses.
Heartless and cruel you love the pain and
hardships of others, sometimes you are the
cause. You are very beautiful on the outside
which will entrance any mortal into believing
what you lead them to, but sooner or later they
will understand the deadly ways of your true
nature. Despite your dark side you are very
talented, you have many gifts that you leave
locked up in favor of whatever else your doing
at the moment. The feeling of love is alien and
unwanted, it frightens you. Perhaps the only
thing that does, you are quite brave and things
rarely surprise or startle you.


.::=What type of mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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I was in the mental facility until @ 3:51 PM
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I Told You I Could Right Through You

from What is Your Superpower by Tickle.com


Holy smokes, you've got X-RAYVISION! Your answers show a keen sense of insight, coupled with a piercing mind. Okay, so you may not be able to see through brick walls — not yet, anyway. But you probably enjoy looking beneath the surface of things and reading between the lines. Your X-ray vision lets you see things others can't, making you good at reading people's motivations, solving mysteries of all kinds, or maybe just finding misplaced car keys. You've got the gift, so if you haven't started using it, it's high time you did. Just think of the benefits: You could really start undressing people with your eyes. Winning lottery tickets and grand prize soda-bottle caps will be effortlessly revealed to you. So start practicing! All superheroes know that developing your powers begins with mental training. To start honing your X-ray vision, try looking for the hidden meaning in things. Read old English poetry. Do crossword puzzles. Think metaphorically. Once you've trained your mind, you'll be ready to instruct the eyes. Start with gauzey fabrics, then move on to semi-transparent glass. Keep at it, and you'll be seeing through concrete slabs in no time. Good luck

I was in the mental facility until @ 3:43 PM
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Now You Know That You Shouldn't Have Said It!

You should have known when enough is enough. You should have respected people, when you know they could do something to you ~something REAL BAD! I think, you wouldn't know that. You belittle me~ comparing your skills to mine. You think that i am such a LOSE, i have no goal, no use, no talent, no intellect, no sense nor sanity, no identity, no..nothing. i was nothing in your eyes. nothing, except a little twerp, who might do more harm than good.

What?! Still, wondering why the hell am i writing this way. Pathetic little thing, i pity you. I almost got to point of respecting you. Now i think, you do not deserve it. You NEVER deserved it at all. I wonder hoe those people haev been deceived by you. well, perhaps they are just like you. they are ALL like you.

And don't try to put that B*11s#!+ about the reason you treat me this way. what do you know, i was acting on the same basis. the only thing is~ i COULD read emotions. I coud ****ing read senseless persons. or perhaps, people too wise to know if they have mistreated a person. well, boo-hoo!

Another thing, don't try to think that you are too smart or something. you know to little to be proud. You know only a pint size about the whole world. stop being such a swell head. )@**!+!!!

"Stop acting so innocent when i can see through you."

Yeah, i should might as well behave and not go on lashing out other people and their business. but, ~hE11, s#u+ up and keep off my mess uless you want to be a part of it. I don't give a s#!+ as to want you want to do with your freakin' life. never add me to your mistakes..

I was in the mental facility until @ 3:03 PM
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In Dreams

cause only when i sleep, i see youin my dreams, got me spinning round and round....

just when i thought it was over, there he is again... playing with my thoughts... haunting me in my sleep - er, maybe this is just an exaggeration - he is still in the innermost recesses of my thoughts though i tried to banish him from that place. and i thought i was successful...

i am not sure why he is in my dreams that night... i stopped thinking of him since.../* i am not sure */ but when i shut my eyes to sleep, i saw hazy purple swirls.. i opened my eyes.. but since it was too dark /*the lights were switched off*/ those purple swirls were the only things i could see... so i forced myself to sleep...
and then, it started.. a dream.

i was in a building in the middle of nowhere. a building painted white with navy blue linings... i was carrying a suitcase and it seemed that i was there for a meeting or a seminar or something. and then, along the corridor... there, a man stood... in very casual clothing... HIM.

i didn't know why but there was something in our actions that made me feel weird... like we have a connection... like we are friends or something /*sure wish*/.

the next things were quite vague /*i can part the time when we composed a song or... */ there were even times that we have misunderstandings... but the part that strined to the most is when i went to him and in his arms i cried.....

i cried... and i was not sure of the reason... in his arms...

i wish it was real.
but it is too good to be true.

I was in the mental facility until @ 2:33 PM
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