Sunday, July 31, 2005

Goodbye's The Saddest Word... for a very senti person

i stopped myself from saying any senti from to my sister. she is a very sentimental person and is easily attached to almost anything.. hahaha....
she just left. she is no longer a dormer. she is offically a BUM. A bakasyonista.
but hey, CONGRATS, SIS! graduate ka na! tapos na boards mo! new chapter na....

i.am.sick

currently listening to LeAnn Rimes's How Do I Live

It has been a week since i posted a real blog entry.
And more than a week, that i miss our "talks" ( i don't know how to describe it). Yes, i miss talking to him. Ang hirap aminin. Iniiwasan ko na nga syang isipin thinking it will go away. Mas mabuti na yun di ba.... di na ako mandidiri sa sarili ko... di na rin manghihilakbot yung IBANG TAO (hehe).


current song: Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx


Anyway.... the problem is, whenever i go somewhere, i look out the window, thinking of the possibility that i could see him walking or standing or just there. And then i saw him. i usually go and talk to him but now, i want to run and hide... disappear. I am never happy when he is around. i feel like i am looking for something more than presence... but hmmm.... a conversation, i don't know...
There are also times that i get depressed right after i talk to him.... SICK.

ewan. i. am. so. SICK.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Songbook na ito...

I am turning this blog into a songbook
Jamaican Farewell
Lord Burgess
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Down the way where the nights are gay
And the sun shines daily on the mountain top
I took a trip on a sailing ship
But when I reached Jamaica I made a stop

Chorus:
Now I'm sad to say, I'm on my way
I won't be back for many a day
My heart is down my head is turning around
I had to leave a little girl in Kingston town

Sounds of laughter everywhere
And the dancing girls sway to and fro
I must declare, my heart is there
Though I've been from Maine to Mexico

(repeat chorus)
Down at the market you can hear
Ladies cry out while on their heads they bear
Ackev rice, salt fish are nice
Oh, the rum is fine any time of year

(repeat chorus)

Sunday, July 24, 2005

haha.... LSS

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I’m older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I’m gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I’ve got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
I can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Let’s talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and I’m feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

I wanna know what love is, let’s talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...



imho, i think the original is still better than hmmmm Sarah Geronimo?
heehee

Wish

i wish i could stop making a fool out of myself.
i wish i could stop thinking thoughts of hurt and grief.
i wish i could stop imagining things that could never be.
i wish i could stop hearing sad music and lonely lines.
i wish i could stop being so emphatic and sympathetic.
i wish i could stop singing then, feel all alone.
i wish i could stop feeling my insecurities.
i wish i could stop believing in dreams.
i wish i could stop creating something i'll destroy.
i wish i could stop envying my friends(?) and other people i know.
i wish i could stop seeing him through my head.
i wish i could stop recalling the things that he said.
i wish i could stop pretending that he is here when he is so far away.
i wish i could stop hurting my self for pathetic reasons.
i wish i could stop fearing little crazy lies.
i wish i could stop asking why i am not happy.
i wish i could stop wearing this annoying mask.
i wish i could stop being seen, and begin to disappear.
i wish i could stop knowing someone whom i can really hate.
i wish i could stop loving and avoid being hurt.

i wish i could start all over again
instead of trying to stop things.
i wish i could start living
instead of feeling dead.





ewan... random thoughts. can this pass as a poem?

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Twenteen Two

Happy Burthday momy... heehee
ampunin mo na rin ako....
wahehehehe

yun lang.

wala akong maisip na blog.
haaay.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Blog Blog Blog and blog some more...

i don't know what i am feeling now.
i feel a bit annoyed, depressed, agitated

where are you now?...

heehee...ehem.


anyway, just as i expected comments about the dance in SR
and pambungad sa akin.
medyo asar ako dahil sumayaw ako
pero medyo natuwa
dahil na shock sila na marunong pala akong sumayaw
which partially annoying kasi
porke ba mukha akong flubber e di ako nakakasayaw

well, i was just taking things
negatively
pasaway talaga ako
compliment na nga yung sabihing
"magaling pala ikaw sumayaw...etc.yada yada"
pero medyo asar pa rin ako

me kulang e...
hulaan..


ehem
where are you now?...


di ko man lang sya nakausap..
haay. pathetic.
kadiri na rin.
*gags

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Harry Potter Book 6

nakahiram na ako..... bwahahahahahahah

yun lang.

Monday, July 18, 2005

A Song...( supposed to be )

i just forgot the melody

Alone
Alone
I cried out
At night
I suffered in my pain
My life is darkened
By my shame

Alone
I'm crushed by
My own hatred
I'm blinded by deceit
I found no hope
Trapped in my worries

chorus:
You alone
Can turn
My mourning to dancing
You alone
Can turn
My sorrow into joy
Come and enter in my heart
Let me be in your light
Lead me out of the darkness
In my life

coda:
And the tears that i cried
Will be dried by your hands
And the coldness of my spirit
Will be warmed by you love




now, i have to remember the melody or i have to create a new one... sorry, i think the lyrics are a bit... corny... but to be honest. it came from my heart. i wrote it during a CMSC 127 class. i just heard myself singing a song and happy to be able to wirte it on paper ... bu alas, i still can't remember the tune... waaaaa

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Sorry

I am sorry
for being angry at you
the feeling
that you will neglect us
and the feeling of being forgotten

i am sorry
for envying of you
the thoughts of you being
waaaaaaay better than me
because you are more cheerful
because you are smarter
because you are more friendly
because you are prettier
because you are more talented
and
because i know you have
a very good voice

i am sorry
for being a rotten person
for being freaky
for being annoying


i know it's hard
i know i have done
many wrong things
and i know
that it is very hard
to admit
how wrong these thoughts
and feelings are

i am sorry



p.s. you know who you are. i need a reply

I Am Flubber...

i danced... i danced... i danced.... but *bleep i am freakin' obese and looked like flubber....

i somehow wanted to share this talent, use this talent that God has gievn me but i still feel bad. even though people say i dance well, the moment i look to a mirror and saw my ugly shape, i vomit(*not literally), freak out and say "why give me this talent? why not the talent for singing". honestly, when you are a singer and a very good one, people would like your voice and you and be happy when you sing and not mind if you are not that pretty, they could just listen to your voice. but when you dance, the people see the whole you moving dancing and all that jazz. if you have the shape of the hourglass they would cheer and really really appreciate and you really feel good and look good doing it. but if you are like me... an obese creature.. the height of five feet two inches and the weight of about 80 kilos-that is not a pretty picture. and it sucks. do i have to feel sick when i dance then look at a mirror. i don't want to feel that way but that thought eats me whole.

why can't i be physically normal. i am proud to be psychologically not normal(as many people say) but can i be physically normal.

i feel miserable... cold and lonely everytime i think of this. and it is like blaming God for my how i look and my parents for my genes and most of all i hate myself because can't do anything about it.

i just can't. and it hurts. i often tell myself God loves me no matter how i look or i am fearfully and wonderfully made or looks doesn't matter, what matters is what's in your heart. but i always come to the point of hating myself.


it is always like this.
help me.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

And It Took Us 20 Minutes

this morning i asked my sister to help me look for the book i was looking for at the time when i was mistaken for a lesbian in need of a marriage certificate(still can't over it and gives me the creeps).

anyway, we looked for a bookstore there, in Avenida... and it was a half of my dreamland. If i could, i would choose to lock myself in there with all those books. And.. best of all, i found the book i was looking for (Yes, i badly needed it-the exam is near-*shivers). ... and it took us 20 minute unlike the hour and a half i wasted the last time.


the bad thing about going there is... i feel that i want to buy those books that i wanted to buy but doing so would use up all my allowance. waaah...i told my sister, the good part of the trip is finding the book, the bad part is....*sniff, and she felt the same way.

but it's okay, i can wait for another month, when i have enough money again for non academic books. *sigh

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Where Are You Now?

this was the day that i have been waiting for...


and he was nowhere to be found


Now, i feel soooooo.... Lonely.
Blue. Sad.

Anyway. shucks. i still. don't know what to say.
Maybe. Not now. I am still out of my mind.
And i got tears in my eyes-err...not!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Okay...

Now i can type whatever i want to say about the movie WAR OF THE WORLDS (starring:Tom Cruise, Dakota Fanning)

WARNING:If you haven't watched the movie... beware, this could be a real spoiler

hmmm...[scratch head]
Okay, i think that the film being about aliens would seem to be the typical humans-are-underdogs-against-hi-tech-alien-machinery-but-aliens-hae-weakness-and-we-defeated-them-in-the-end but realizing that it was a Spielberg film.. well, it must be better than that.

It started with a narration about man living on earth without wondering what beneath it and unaware of the creature eyeing our planet. As you hear Morgan Freeman's voice, he is the narrator, the screen shows the chromatids, then the cell, the earth and galaxy... okay, i don't need to elaborate

Well, the main focus is a man named Ray Ferrier(Tom Cruise)who was divorced by his wife Mary Ann(Miranda Otto) and was living alone. Yes, he dumped his kids(Dakota Fanning,Justin Chatwin) to his wife so that, i think, he could do whatever he wants... and no responsibilities. So one day, after his work, his wife came to leave him the kids because they are going to Boston. This guy was, honestly, not a very good father. His son Robbie hates him and Rachel seemed to love her brother more han her dad.

Then a lightning storm occured, then there's this big power failure (no electricity, mobile phones won't work, and even cars..). And then, some metallic "tripod" creatures came out from where the lightnings hit.

And that starts his "escape" from the Tripods trying to save the life of his children.

Though it really is man against aliens (and the cameras are often focused on Cruise and Fanning), it also shows us how man strives to survive in his territory. Some chose to do selfish deeds but there are also caring individuals (watch the movie and you'll see).

but then, the humans didn't find their weakness and killed all of the machines. It is by the Earth's creatures will to survive that these machines were destroyed. It like God gave them the power to rule over the Earth and we must protect it. It like man's test to survive.

I remember the part when Rachel got a splinter in her finger and her dad wanted to get it out. She said no, because there her body will push it out. Like Earth's war against these Alien Machines, at first it will really hurt... but there will be a way to push them out, our own way of defense.


On the acting, DAKOTA FANNING REALLY FREAKED ME OUT!!! I LOVE THAT KID!!!! Tom Cruise is good. And hey, there was one time that we didn't want Robbie (Justin Chatwin) to die, not because he is a crushable but because we want the whole family to survive then, haha..... i think i gave out too many details... I REALLY AM A SPOILER. =)

Dakota is One Scary Kid



I have just watched War of the Worlds... and Dakota Fanning scareed (the *bleeP) out of me. That kid got talent! TONS of it.
anyway, i think i need to let time pass so i could write more about the film...
because it is just.... whoa...

i am speechless....


anyway, there were loads of trailers before the movie so i planned what to watch... The Chronicles of Narnia:The Lion The Witch and The Wardrobe, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (luv Johnny Depp) and Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire that would be... hmmm 3 films ... i need to save money... hah!

Saturday, July 09, 2005

I Am A Lesbian In Need Of A Marriage Certificate

-NOT!

i have nothing against them but me, being linked to my friend and we are planning to get married is not a very nice thought.

This is the story:(heehee!)
I harrassed(not really harrass, this was already scheduled) my dormmate, choirmate, friend, favorite victim ...etc.etc. one Saturday morning (10am -and THAT'S THIS MORNING). We will go to Recto to look/hunt for a book that my Professor required us for a Major subject.
The jeep we rode took a route different from what we know, so at first we both were a bit scared(-ahhh... sobra naman) of being lost...heehee. then we saw light.. LRT2.. so we went off the jeepney and walked. then crossed the street to the area were many books(brand new or second hand) were sold. we moved from stall to stall but alas, no Programming Language: Concepts and Constructs was found...and bought.=(
then we decided to go to the other side... not knowing that is was the scarier side.. with all the fake certificates and diplomas... still searching for a book i held her by the hand as is i would lose her in the crowd. And i tell you, that place really gave me the creeps..
to continue... some men approached us asking, "kailangan nyo ba ng marriage certificate? (Do you need a Marriage Certificate?)" we both shook our heads and wondered, do we look that old to need a marriage certificate.. and why do we look like we need a certificate... when we decided to head back home... errr.. to the dorm i overheard the same person(they are still following us) ask, "Who is the guy?sino ang lalaki?(Who is the guy?)". Our reaction:SHOCKED...
now, that was the reason why they are offering that.. we looked like lesbian lovers... yaaaak!!!!!waaaah!
Female friends hold hands but that doesn't mean that they like(as in LIKE) each other. =l...
that is so freaky.. so i end up giving free lunch to her for both physical and emotional harrasSment (heehee, exaggerating a bit).
WE JOKED:your horoscope for today, you will end up killing a man who is offering you FAKE marriage certificates thinking that you are lesbian...
as is if believe in horoscope...heehee

Friday, July 08, 2005

Bakit Ko Kaya Naisip to...

I can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way
To leave this love behind
I ain’t trippin
I’m just missing
You know what I’m saying
You know what I need
You can’t be hanging on a string
While you make me cry
I try to give you everything
But you just gave me lies
Every now and then
When I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do..
I’m such a fool
For you
I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true
I’m stuck on you
Now love’s a broken record that’s
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we’ve got to play these games we play?
Every now and then
When I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool


kanta po ito.... =)

No Black Gowns Please

i realized that is is already july 8 and i will be wearing my black gown at july 16. OMG!!!
how does it feel...
annoying... i don't want to wear that freaky gown anymore...
no more gowns...
that is so not me...

argh.... i hate gowns..


okay honestly.. i keep on putting post
justy waiting for me to write something decent or good
but i can't
i am just playing with these keys
and the words in my head...

but my head has been cracked up..
i don't know
i can't think well
like i am bothered
freaking out
and crazed
and annoyed
and jumbled

why can't find peace..
argh..
ahhhh....



wish i could scream...
wish i could let go
everything inside me
wish i could say what i want to say



but i would just break into pieces

Black and Blue

once again... someone told me that wearing black nails makes you an anti-Christ...
okay.
enough of that. i had enough of those comments that could cause me to get really annoyed.

next topic.
hmmm... i just researched something about a freal child and i tell you, it so...
argh...

read this case:

A feral child is a child who has lived isolated from human contact starting from a very young age and who has remained unaware of human behaviour and unexposed to language. A feral child is an extremely rare phenomenon. Around 100 cases over the past few centuries are documented at http://www.feralchildren.com.

Feral children may be separated from society by being lost or abandoned into the wild. The category also includes children who have been purposely kept apart from human society, ex. kept in a room in solitary confinement. Sometimes abandonment is due to parents rejecting a child's severe intellectual impairment or physical disability, and some feral children experience severe child abuse or trauma before being abandoned.

Some feral children who end up in the wild are reared by wild animals such as wolves or bears or may become integrated into animal groups. Despite being normally considered hostile to humans, such animals may in fact adopt abandoned human babies as their own, particularly if they have lost their own young.

Many fictional stories and legends depict feral children and integrate the theme of adoption by animals. Perhaps the best known example is that of the legend of the twin boys Romulus and Remus, reputed by myth to be the founders of Rome, who were abandoned at birth and raised by wolves. Other famous examples in fiction are Mowgli in Rudyard Kipling's The Jungle Book, Edgar Rice Burroughs's Tarzan, and the American tall tale of Pecos Bill. (See also Feral children in mythology and fiction.)

Fictional feral children are often depicted as growing up with relatively normal human intelligence and skills and an innate sense of culture or civilisation, coupled with a healthy dose of survival instincts; their integration into human society is made to seem relatively easy. In reality, however, feral children lack the basic social skills which are normally learned in the process of enculturation. For example, they may eat with their hands at a great rate, be unable to learn to use a toilet, have trouble learning to walk upright and display a complete lack of interest in the human activity around them. They often seem mentally impaired and have almost insurmountable trouble learning a human language.

It is essentially impossible to convert a child who became isolated at a very young age into a relatively normal member of society. Such individuals need close care throughout their lives. As they are "discovered", feral children become the subject of lively scientific and media interest. Once the excitement dies down and their limitations in terms of learning culture and social behaviour become obvious, frustration can set in and they often spend the rest of their lives passed from one caregiver to another. It is common for them to die young.

Case study: Genie
Genie is the name given to a young girl discovered in Los Angeles, U.S. on November 4, 1970, a lifelong victim of bizarre child abuse.

Genie was born in April of 1957; she was the fourth (and second surviving) child to unstable parents. Her mother was partially blind due to cataracts and a detached retina, and her father (who was 20 years the mother's senior) was mentally unbalanced, particularly due to a deep depression over a hit-and-run accident which killed his mother.

At the age of 20 months, Genie was just starting on the road to language when a doctor told her family that she seemed a little bit slow, possibly mildly retarded. Genie's father took the opinion into extreme, believing that she was profoundly retarded and subjected her to severe isolation as well as ritual ill-treatment (this was his idea of "protecting" her). Upon her discovery, Genie (13 years and 7 months) was tied to a potty chair and wearing diapers. She possessed no language skills and could only babble like an infant. It was also reported that her father would beat her every time she vocalized and would bark and growl at her like a dog to keep her quiet; he also even forbade his wife and son to ever speak to her. She was 13 years old, and for over a decade had been completely restrained, left alone in her room without any sort of human interaction whatsoever.

The discovery of Genie occurred when Genie's mother finally gained enough courage to desert her domineering husband. She managed to successfully run away from her home and take Genie with her. Genie, her mother, and her maternal grandmother came into a welfare office in Temple City, California to seek benefits for the blind. A social worker at the office discovered Genie and thought that she was 6 or 7 years old and had autism. When it was revealed that she was actually 13 going on 14, the worker immediately called her supervisor who called the police. Genie was immediately sent to Children's Hospital for malnutrition and rehabilitation, and her parents were charged with willful gross neglect of a minor. On the day that her parents were to appear in court, Genie's father shot himself to death. The charges on the mother were dropped when it was revealed that she, too, was a victim of domestic abuse.

When released for the first time, Genie affected a strange "bunny walk", held her hands up in front of her like paws, and constantly spat and clawed. She was almost entirely silent. Through sleep studies, scientists were able to detect abnormal brain waves, so it seemed that Genie was brain damaged. (They were unsure of whether this was the result of her years of isolation or if she had actually been born that way.)

After spending a brief time in a rehabilitation center, Genie was cared for in a foster home and attended special schools. She developed relationships with many people and learned many different activities such as sewing, drawing, etc. She not only learned spoken language, but she also learned sign language as well. Though initially showing great progress, Genie soon hit a wall in her language acquisition. She never really learned language structure and only got so far as phrases like "Applesauce buy store". Linguists and scientists wanted to learn whether language could be learned past puberty (see Lenneberg's Critical Age Hypothesis), but because Genie was brain-damaged, the studies were not nearly conclusive enough. In addition, much controversy arose as to the validity and usefulness of many of the experiments conducted on the girl, and funding was cut off.

While people did all they could to help Genie, Genie's mother was also given professional help and even had surgery which removed her cataracts and largely restored her sight. When Genie was 18, she returned to the care of her mother. However, after a few months, her mother found her too difficult to handle, and Genie was placed in a series of foster homes. In one of the homes, she was severely punished for vomiting, which caused her to be afraid to open her mouth for several months. Today, Genie lives in an adult foster home in southern California where she is hidden away from the eyes of the public. Her mother (once again blind, this time from glaucoma) currently resides in a nursing home in southern California. Her older brother is also still alive today.

Further reading on Genie can be found in the book Genie: a Scientific Tragedy (ISBN 0060924659) by Russ Rymer.

An independent film entitled Mockingbird Don't Sing (2001) is based on Genie's life.


that really... made me so sad...


[sudden mood change]

why do i have to see him again?
why does it hurt to see him again?
how come i am not happy to see him?
what is it with me and seeing him?

argh....
now i feel like crying...
and somehow
this sick feeling
and thinking of him seem to fade

haay...
but i still feel sick seing him
and his image on my mind


ihatehimihatehimihatehimihatehimihatehimihatehimihatehim
i really hate him.


now,now, don't you dare laugh.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Deeper Than the Blue Skies

wala lang akong maisip na title

Bakit ako praning?
Bakit kung anu ano na lang nag naiiisip ko?
Bakit ko sinasaktan ang sarili ko?
Bakit ako nagpapaasa sa wala?

Ewan.
Sumasakit na ang ulo ko sa tuwing mag iisip ako
kung ano man ang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko.
Masyado ka nang pinabibigat ang kalooban ko.
At siguro... pati ang damdamin ng iba
nasasagasaan ko na...
at pinahihirapan.

Haaay...
Ano ba?
Naiiyak ako sa mga bagay na walang katuturan.
Nagdadrama na naman.
Pero di ko naman masisisi ang sarili ko.
Ganito lang talaga ang takbo ng isip ko.

Bakit ko naisip magdrama?
Okay...
Kahit may nakakakilala sa akin sa blog na ito...
Sasabihin ko na..

Hindi ako masaya sa mundong ito.
Hindi ko gusto ang mga standards ng tao.
Nasasakal na ako sa mga depinisyon nila ng pagkatao mo
ayon sa pananamit, hilig, pagkilos atbp.
Pero bakit ako makikinig sa iba?
Hindi ko naman talaga pinakikinggan pero...
Madalas idinudukdok sa akin ang tamang histura o
ang dapat gawin...
which is

SICK!

okay, it is so pathetic..
why should you make me stick to your standards
when you can't even see what's in my heart?
why should i be affected
on how people think of me
when i have a mind of my own?
why should i let you hurt me
with your narrow opinions
when i know who i really am?
I know what i believe in...


Why should i keep on thinking
of something...
even though it is so far out of reach?
Why should i torture myself
because of that something
that could never understand what i feel?
Why should i punish myself
for being something that i can never be?

Why do i feel lost
in an emotion
that is so hard to understand?
an emotion....
that it's codes i can't decipher...

i don't know how i feel for everything...
i don't know what to feel...
why feel...

can somebody put me out of this misery?
i know Someone who can...
and i know no human can....

Monday, July 04, 2005

OUCHINESS

ouch...ooouch...ouchinesss

why do i have to be hyperacidic

and normally irregular...


..and i forgot to buy meds..


ouch!

Sunday, July 03, 2005

i just somehow
want to release
all these things
that has occupied me brain

i realized.. i have been too mushy
in my past blogs
and i am a bit
well
annoyed

what to do?
that specific something
has been the major occupant
of that thing inside my skull

and i can't get it out of my head...

and why does something
has to happen
argh, i can't even understand
what i am trying to say


okay, what i am trying to say is....
why won't it give me peace
i am trying to forget that
there is something
that i feel something
and i am willing to let it go
but there is something
that tries to hold me back

The Great Opal Escape

Opal escapes from the recon... Artemis and Holly escapes Opal...


I thought that Master Artemis Fowl's last escapade will be at the Third Book. Good thing I was mistaken.
Though he was mind wiped in the end of the third book Artemis Fowl :The Eternity Code, he is back with Captain Holly Short(who was to be promoted Major, anyway Trouble Kelp is already a Major) trying to save Haven from the evil (a very very vain)pixie billionairess Opal Koboi (Remember her in book 2 Artemis Fowl : The Artic Incident).She had just woken up from a self induced coma for almost a year and has now woken up with huge(as huge as a TROLL maybe) plans. Plans include murder of those who took part into her defeat in the second book: Commander Julius Root, Captain Holly Short, Foaly, Artemis Fowl and of course, Butler(Mulch also had a part but since LEPrecon doesn't want criminals to be part of their success, he is safe), MudMen meeting the People - guess, what will be the result of that and of course, being the queen, oh princess(she's too small to be queen).~hah
I wanted to talk about what happened in this book so much, but.. *sigh i hate being a spoiler.
Anyway, this thrilling fast-paced series never cease to amaze me. Eleven Wonders of the World, escape from trolls, stealth pods, a highly intelligent and dangerous pixie too addicted to chocolate, booty boxes -what could Eoin Colfer think of next.
Wishing more Artemis Fowl books to come...

these are the other covers of Artemis Fowl : The Opal Deception

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Just A Survey

1.like to walk under the rain?
-YES!!

2.Sleep with or without clothes on?
- with clothes... duh?

3.Prefer black or blue pens?
- BLACK

4.Dress up on Halloween? -
-i don't believe in Halloween

5.Like to travel?
- YES... but i could get motion sick ...^_^

6.Like someone?
- ....errr

7.Does he/she know?
- no...T_T

8.cute ba cya?
- not sure

9.Think you're attractive?
- no... i live in the dark...

10.Want to marry?
- NO!

11.Who?
- AYAW KONG MAG ASAWA

12.Alaska or Hawaii?
- ALASKA

13.Are you a good student?
- NO hehe

14.Are you currently in a relationship?
- NO.. and i don't wish to

15.Are you involved in sports?
- no.. i only like sports that can enable you to crack some skulls and break bones... heehee

16.Christmas or Halloween? --
- Christmas!

17.Colored or black-and-white photo? --
- both

18.Does long distance relationships work?
- uhm... i don't care?!

19.Do you believe in astrology?
- NO

20. Do you believe in GoD?
- YES!

21.Do you believe in love at first sight?
- EWAN

22.Do you consider yourself the life of the
party?
- no. i don't party

23.Are u an outgoing person?
- not really

24.Do you have a job?
- mejo ^_^

25.Do you make fun of people?
- no... so don't make fun of me

26.Do you think dreams eventually come
true?
- mejo..

27.Fave things to do?
- argh... so much to do.. so little time!

30.Chocolates or Candy?
- CHOCOHOLIC-ME!!!

31.Fave person?
-....

32.Favorite body part of the opposite
sex?
- the gray and white matter

33.Favorite food/drink?
- H20

34.Go to the movies or rent?
- kahit ano

37. How's the weather right now?
- a bit warm...

38.Hug or kiss?
- YUCK !!

39.Last person you talked to on the
phone?
- SIS

40.Last time you showered
- KANINA

41.Loud or soft music?
- BOTH

42.McDonalds or Burger King?
- not really fond of fastfood

43.More romantic? baths or shower? --
- duh?

44.Night or day?
- night

45.Number of pillows on ur bed?
-ewan..

46.Piano or guitar?
- guitar

47.Read or write? --
- Both

48.Single or taken?
-single and i intend to be for a long time

49.Snow or water?
- Snow

50.What are you going to do tomorrow?
- ewan

51.what clothes are you wearing?
-the same ol' black shirt and pants

52.What do you drink?
- Tubig

53.What's ur wallpaper on your
computer?
- my face?talk about conceited.

54.What's right next to you?
- my sister

55.What's your bedtime?
- 2,3,4 AM

56.What's your name?
- ... i go by lots of names

Friday, July 01, 2005

Musical!!!


Hinahanap-hanap kita, Manila
Ang ingay mong kay sarap sa tenga
Mga jeepney mong nagliliparan
Mga babaeng mong naggagandahan
Take me back in your arms, Manila
And promise me you'll never let go
Promise me you'll never let go


Luntian at pula(MAROON!)
Sagisag magpakaylan man
Ating 'pagdiwang
Bulwagan ng dangal
Humayo't itanghal
Giting at tapang
Mabuhay ang pag-asa ng bayan
Mabuhay ang pag-asa ng bayan

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.



Why she had to go I don’t know she woldn’t say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.












i can't help it but to sing!!!
lala-la-lala
so happy i can dance....
music in my ears!!!

so high
like i'm drugged...

i love the music...
i love the song...
high...


















...ang pag-ibig
na dalisay...
hinding hindi magmamaliw...
sa dilim at...
sa liwanag....
makapiling hanggang wakas...





until someone spoiled the night.....grrrr