I Am Still Weak....
"I don't want to be a hypocrite. I am not in favor of the in-betweens until... now."I am at the lowest point[so far] of my failing career. I didn't seemed that depressed a few minutes earlier but as i walk alone along the street, i can't help but to say to my self... "what the ---- is wrong with me".
As for why i was.... come to think of it.. is depressed is not really that important. The important thing is through this the realization of i view people had bit.... well, not that good. Aside from the fact that i am very paranoid... i have been judgemental. Why do i hate some people for their
orientation? What should i feel annoyed by those who... moved away from the common cycle of the world?
Why should i feel bad for them when there is something more than who they chose to like... or even love....
I have been narrow minded in this issue. How could i let myself be blinded by the dictates of the society? I should have looked to the deeper part of them, just like the way i searched through the 'ordinary' people. If i hadn't been that stupid, i should have known earlier that even them could have a bigger heart than those who .... =)
I want to thank you. I know that once you've read this you will know that it is you that i am refering to. You are more human than the other [pathetic] humans i know... [okay, i know you are a demi-god?]
Thank you for those kind words... thank you for teaching me not to be well...[looks up....]
..... the @#$*! I couldn't thank you enough
..... i hate the drama =)
