what normal eyesight sometimes can't see...

A Day and a Night More

this song is in my head.... mula ito sa Metropop basta ito yung bahagi ng chorus na tinamaan ako....


A day and a night more without you
Is it all
To loving
Just hoping
for the world to stop
and bring you to me...



hehehe... drama... yakk



nga pala... pinauuwi ako ng cavite* tomorrow.. waaa. paano ko gagawin yun...
I'm Scared..... -




note: ako ay taga batangas na lumipat ng dava del norte , tapos sa fairview at ngaun cavite na.... huwaw.. ansaya!

I was in the mental facility until @ 9:13 PM
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.....Can't Take My Eyes.....

i love you baby and if it's quite alright... i need you baby...

i watch Ten Things I Hate About You for the Nth time!!!
i copied the poem Kat Stratford(Julia Stiles) recited at class which was supposed to be her own version of Sonnet 141 of William Shakespeare. Then, I lseacrhed for Shakespeare's sonnet if the poem really is connected with the Sonnet... You be the judge:

SONNET CXLI
by William Shakespeare

In faith I do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note;
But 'tis my heart that loves what they despise,
Who, in despite of view, is pleased to dote.
Nor are mine ears with thy tongue's tune delighted;
Nor tender feeling, to base touches prone,
Nor taste, nor smell, desire to be invited
To any sensual feast with thee alone:
But my five wits nor my five senses can
Dissuade one foolish heart from serving thee,
Who leaves unswayed the likeness of a man,
Thy proud heart's slave and vassal wretch to be:
Only my plague thus far I count my gain,
That she that makes me sin awards me pain.


Sonnet 141
by Kat Stratford(hehe.... or the real person behind the poem)
I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate it when you drive my car
I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate it
I hate the way you always write
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly i hate the way i don't hate you
Not even close
Not even a little bit
Not even at all



hmmmmm...... T_T

I was in the mental facility until @ 6:45 PM
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Sigh....

hanggang tingin na lang ba....

i am turning into my own worst nightmare. ewan. bakit ganito. nakakaloko naman ang tadhana. sa halip na inspirasyon ang kailangan ko... binigyan ako ng distraction... haay... natatakot na ang iba kong nakilala dahil nagiging mushy na ako.. at ano pa... uhm... dahil for once.. nakita nila na tao din ako at kinikilig din.

pero masakit din ang ganito. lalo na pag iniisip mo na... marami kang plano para sa sarili mo at di mo gusto ang nararamdaman mo.. at dahil tao ka at mahina ay nagugulo ka at pilit mong nararamdaman ang ganito.

ayokong maging mushy pero bakit ganito. hangga't maaari ayokobng maging emotional. pero.. may emotion pa rin ako bukod sa galit at lungkot...

pilit kong iniisip... crush lang yan... di big deal... normal yun.. pero sa lagay na ito..iniisip ng tao na parang sobra sa crush...

minsan lang akong magka-crush....bakit ganito pa....









*sigh...

I was in the mental facility until @ 11:21 PM
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the right contact lens

is lost.... for the nth time...
waaaahh!!

i am so annoyed.... sobs!!

I was in the mental facility until @ 10:06 PM
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Deviations

I've done nothing but photomanipulations... haaa.... and i realized that they can be different from each other.i don't stick to a certain style...




->this one is a bit sad... but hopeful... it gray all over but hmm... the theme is not that eerie...


->this one is so NOT ME! a bit cheery and light!


->this is the type of deviation people usually see from me. haha. blood and ghastly creatures...


does it seem that i dont have anything to write at all... well... i am still a bit distracted. i think i am going nuts........=)

I was in the mental facility until @ 3:49 PM
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I am sad but i am not

what is it in me?

i feel two emotions at the same time..
i feel happy and sad about a situation..
i feel annoyed and joyful about something else..

i know i am weird. but this thing i crazy.

funny.. i could also get into an emotion
when i should not
for example... i cry for no reasons at all...
i am just depressed
i am angry and annoyed[most of the time] but there is nothing to be angry about.

am i crazy... maybe, i am
=)

I was in the mental facility until @ 10:09 AM
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Another Poem...

yes, my muse is back!!!!! oh, well, i have an inspirtaion...yaaak!!!


untitled

I took a second look
Hoping you smiled
Maybe hoping you said hello
With a cheer
In the tone of your voice
Even a spark
From your eyes
Waiting for the exact moment
Time will stop
With you and I
Staring each other
Face to face
But you went past my shoulder
No hello, no smiles
For at that exact minute
As I wait for a reply
You were just an illusion
Created by my mind





sad....T_T
...wishing you were somehow here again...
hehe

I was in the mental facility until @ 11:22 PM
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Depression

I don't know why i am depressed....


it's like...
all of a sudden
my world turn into shades of
black and white.
i feel terribly sad...
and i can't stop
the tears running down my face...
I feel alone....
everyone seemed too far
though they are just there..
I feel cold...
and i feel chest pains...
only in my head...
I feel like i am choking
and dying...
and my heart beats like crazy...
and after a while...
it will stop.







i feel lifeless...
i am in pain...
powerless...

and i've been like this since yesterday

I was in the mental facility until @ 11:29 AM
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Yehey! New Format

I edited.. again my blog... wheee!!!! this is so nice.... i can put pictures...!!! wheee!!!

I was in the mental facility until @ 10:34 AM
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Distracted

Okay.. I think my WANTED: CRUSH sign worked..
but i can't still find any ideas or inspiration to write....
er, type....

instead..
i am distracted from my work..
or in everything i do...

this is bad....
the more i try not to think of him..
...blah....


argh...

I was in the mental facility until @ 10:37 AM
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Something to Write About

Being an out of school youth as of this moment....[bad]

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Knowing that you can't enroll he subject you need to enrol...[worse]

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Not seeing or talking to hmmmm.......[waaaah!!!]

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Meeting new people......[good]

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Being blessed spritually.........[better]


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Having a chance to attend a worship concert, 1 hour 45 mnute nonstop praise and worship.......[hallelujah!!!! life is so good!!!!!]


hey, if the worship leader[Reuben Morgan] has a voice and face of an angel[well, many people know think he's hmmmm....gorgeous-waha!] who wouldn't want to stay there... joke.... wrong motive...and that's not my motive...

Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are god

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust


it was very overwhelming experience... i fekt something so powerful in that place that i could't stop my tears to fall. it was so powerul... and it was not the band or the singer that makes the worship so....[argh i can't fnd the exact word to say it!!!!].. it is the presence of the Holy Spirit... the presence of God. and the number people who wants HIM to be a HUGE part of their lives makes it so special.

wow!!!

a great way to start the sem....



well... i wish they sang this at the worship concert....
SHOUT YOUR FAME
Jonas Myrin, Natasha Bedingfield, Gio Galanti, Paul Nevison



SOME SAY YOU'RE JUST A GOOD MAN, SOME SAY YOU WERE KIND
SOME SAY YOU ARE IN THE GRAVE, BUT I SAY YOU'RE ALIVE
SOME SAY YOU'RE JUST A PROPHET, SOME SAY YOU WERE WISE
SOME SAY YOU WERE JUST A MAN, BUT I SAY YOU ARE GOD, YOU ARE MY GOD

CHORUS (1):
I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME TO ALL THE EARTH
I WILL LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
AND THE WORLD WILL KNOW YOUR GREATNESS
YOU ARE MY GOD, I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME

I KNOW YOU'RE THE MESSIAH. YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE FOR ME
I KNOW YOU'RE THE ONLY WAY, JESUS YOU ARE GOD, YOU ARE MY GOD

CHORUS (2):
I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME TO ALL THE EARTH
I WILL LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
AND THE WORLD WILL KNOW YOUR GREATNESS
YOU ARE MY GOD, JESUS I WILL SHOUT YOUR FAME
TO ALL THE EARTH
I WILL LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
I WILL SHOW THE WORLD YOUR GOODNESS
AS I LIVE A LIFE THAT SHOUTS YOU FAME
AS I LIVE A LIFE THAT SHOUTS YOU FAME

BRIDGE:
JESUS I DECIDE TO LIVE
LIVE A LIFE THAT SHOUTS YOUR FAME
SHOUT YOUR FAME

I was in the mental facility until @ 2:40 PM
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Song of the Moment

Tattoed On My Mind
D'Sound

Maybe you soon forget about all
or maybe you'll miss it like I do

one thing's for sure:
I'm all knocked out
spend too much time thinking of you

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind
and your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams

Don't wanna write, I don't wanna call,
- I would not know what to say
It should be you, that's how I want it to be
Tell me you feel the same way

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the deja vu's kind
and your smile is tattooed on my mind
Cause I can't get you out of my dreams

Oh, yesterday I was feeling safe
All I do today is trying to be brave
And no melody can seem to soothe my mind
And now I curse you for being so sweet and so kind

And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the deja vu's kind
and your face is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams

Yes I know you're tatooed
On my mind you're tatooed.....



On my mind.. tattooed....
his song even inspired my to create a deviation....

I was in the mental facility until @ 1:41 PM
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